Gary offered me a sailing experience. My first one on board a boat. I jumped at it. Took urgent leave. When the leave got approved, they asked me what it was for.
"Going sailing", the words fell off my tongue with absolute conviction that this was worth putting the rest of my life on hold.
The sea was calm and the sunset was breathtaking. I tried my hand at putting up the sails - steering and navigating. I was dizzy, this must be rapture? When I started to recognize it as sea sickness, I thought to myself that altitude sickness is going to be a bit like that. Maybe worse.
Figure that going to Kili is a bit like that. Taking many urgent days off to endure the hardship and cold. I can sense the fatigue and splitting headache a mile away and still out of sight.
Can't help but row for my life towards it.
You are young. So you know everything. You leap into the boat and begin rowing. But listen to me. Without fanfare, without embarrassment, without any doubt, I talk directly to your soul. Listen to me. Lift the oars from the water, let your arms rest, and your heart, and heart's little intelligence, and listen to me. There is life without love. It is not worth a bent penny, or a scuffed shoe. It is not worth the body of a dead dog nine days unburied. When you hear, a mile away and still out of sight, the churn of the water as it begins to swirl and roil, fretting around the sharp rocks-when you hear that unmistakable pounding-when you feel the mist on your mouth and sense ahead the embattlement, the long falls plunging and steaming-then row, row for your life toward it. - West Wind #2 by Mary Oliver
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